So, today is the last day. This residency went by all too
quickly and I have loved every minute of it. I was here at the Marion Davies
Guest House almost every day of my tenure. This was a perfect residency for me
because it balanced my two sides: the introvert and the extrovert. I love to
spend hours alone – and here I was able to look at the ocean while working, a
definite perk -- but I also enjoy getting out there and sharing my love of
fiction with other people.
Being asked to plan and run two community events when you usually
spend most of your time at home in yoga pants can be challenging, but thanks to
this residency, I got into the habit of suiting up every day and taking the
introvert outside to play.
I think of myself as a commercial writer. I describe
my book as light, but not so light that someone will have to scrape you
off the ceiling. It may seem antithetical to artistic or literary purists, but
I aim to please. I want people to enjoy my work. I love to make people laugh.
I don’t often have much control of a first draft and that
drives me crazy. There are two sides of writing for me. The first draft makes me think that I’m either brilliant or insane. Then, I am comforted when all the revisions shape
those initial ravings into something that might be conceived of as art.
For a writer, I’m a pretty outgoing person. I see myself as
an entertainer, albeit not one who jumps around singing and dancing. I tell
tales and I do it on the page and though I’m glad when I amuse myself – which
is pretty often – I’m thrilled when I amuse others. I believe that my literary
heroes: Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte, Charles Dickens, Somerset Maugham, George
Orwell, E.M. Forster, Elizabeth Von Arnim, Dodie Smith, F.Scott Fitzgerald, Ernest
Hemingway, William Boyd, Ian McEwan, Nick Hornby, Raymond Carver, Toni Morrison.
Truman Capote, Grace Paley, and so many others (okay, I realize that the
majority of these are English) all wrote to be read. Many of them wrote for money and they weren't ashamed of it. Dickens
wrote A Christmas Carol because of a
pressing need for cash. He loved to perform in public, but when you look at how
many hefty tomes he produced, you have to acknowledge that the guy spent
plenty of time alone at his desk – and he was writing with a quill. Dickens
balanced his extroverted and introverted sides and it worked for him. I would
not compare myself with Dickens, but what I would say is that I, too, have been
able to exercise both sides of my personality during my time here. This
particular residency encourages community interaction; and, for me, that was a
bonus.
One of my favorite moments came last weekend when a nineteen
year old woman (we'll call her Zoe) came to the guest house with her parents during my office hours
expressly to meet “the writer in residence.” We talked for about forty-five
minutes while her parents toured the house. We covered why, in the story Zoe was currently working on, her character runs into the Devil in
a dark alley and then we segued into whether Zoe had ever written with a pen
instead of a computer.
“A pen?”
She looked at me as if I had just asked her to write with a dinosaur bone
dipped in blood.
“Well,” I
explained, “sometimes the action of using a pen and moving your arm can quiet
the mind or just give you a different perspective.”
On the
first day of the residency, I bought myself a neon green pen holder and a dozen
matching pens. I took one out and handed it to her. “Keep that,” I said. “Try
it.”
After a
while, Zoe’s mother, a lawyer, dropped in and since I secretly believe that all
lawyers are closeted writers (since I was one myself), I asked her if she was
interested in writing.
“Oh, no not
me,” she said and she went away so Zoe and I could finish our conversation.
It was then
that I explained how writing was like the Vulcan Mind Meld, guessing that
everyone, even nineteen-year-olds knew about Star Trek. Zoe gave me an odd
look. I pointed to her forehead and then to mine. “Writing is like
communicating brain to brain. Anything that enhances that communication is
probably good writing and anything that makes you wonder if you should go get
that piece of chocolate cake in the kitchen probably doesn't work so well.
Sure, there are rules and there are tricks, but they are all to send you in the
direction of the Vulcan Mind Meld.”
Zoe nodded,
thanked me heartily and walked off with her pen. A few minutes went by and her
mother popped her head in.
“Could I
have one of those pens?” she asked, as if this particular bunch of neon green
pens had something special about them.
“Of
course,” I said, handing her one.
Maybe that
was my favorite moment in the whole residency, the one in which I seemed to
have been able to convince this mother and daughter that there was power in
these pens, even something magical about them.
And by
convincing them, I convinced myself. After all, one of these pens can create a whole
world.
I am
extremely grateful to everyone who made this residency possible. If anyone
would like to contact me in the future, please do so at inklingslit@gmail.com.